Update April 2022: Net Worth, Rough Month, Indexing, Covid

Rough Month. Ouch.

Our net worth declined by 11.42% in USD and 6.48% in EUR to $110,276 and €104,329 respectively. The euro loss was offset by the appreciation of the dollar relative to the euro. At the same time, our euro debt was reduced in value relative to the dollar.

This was our worst month financially since March 2020.

Stock Decline: Sleep Test and Indexing

Obviously, the main driver was the stock market declines. I wish I could say I bathed in glory and withstood the desire to sell anything. I wish I could say I wasn't scared. I wish I could say that the online chatter didn't influence my decisions.

I sold some stuff. I was scared. I let myself be influenced by noise.

That said, I tinkered rather than dismantled. I knew that at any moment, the whole thing could turn around, so it was unwise to go to cash 100%. So if my tinkerings were mistakes (as they almost certainly were), they will be small mistakes rather than absolute disasters.

One thing that's become abundantly clear though is that my overall portfolio is not passing the "sleep test". I am often worried about it. It is often gnawing at me, prompting me to take action in one way or another.

It's stupid. I'm saving money in order to improve my life, but if I'm stressing over it, then what's the point?

So I'm going to start indexing most of my new money. I'll start with about $7,000 and put most new money into that on a monthly basis. I intend to write more about this decision, but long story short is: I need a pool of money where I don't worry about individual securities. Right now, I have to worry about each individual name in my portfolio. Might this company perform poorly? Have I overweighted this company? Maybe this is a secular decline, and I'm missing it?

I hate all this. This worry is a negative in my life, and so far my stock picking ability has not shown itself to be superior, so it's an emotional negative for not much gain.

Covid Caught

As a backdrop to all this, I've caught the coronavirus. Last Friday, as the worst day of selling was ravaging my portfolio, I was sitting home alone having called in sick to work. I had the sinking suspicion that I'd caught it, but since I'm both vaccinated and boosted, all my self tests came back negative.

Only on Sunday did the test faintly show positive. Now I know why they say the self tests take fifteen minutes: the control line appears quickly, but it takes much longer for the T line to show up. If you just wait for the C line, you might miss the eventual faint T line, which tells you that you're positive.

My employer requested that I get a "Bürgertest" (a free fast test administered by an official testing center) and, if positive, a PCR test. Both came back positive, and so I'm at home at least until next Monday.

Financially, this is a set back. I was set to do some extra work for my employer that would have paid me a fair amount of money. Someone else will do that now. On the upside, at least I can't go out and spend money, but that's little comfort.

Ironically, I caught it at work, where a mini super-spreader event occurred. Restrictions have been lightened in the past few weeks, and we had a week and a half of vacation. Simultaneously, our thrice-weekly testing regimen was changed from PCR tests to antigen tests. Someone must have had a false negative and come to work, where they infected me and around 20 other colleagues. Go team.

Health-wise, this thing was awful. Saturday and Sunday were especially unpleasant with coughing, sneezing, runny nose, body aches and pains, a high fever, and an overall sense of fatigue and foreboding. It's gotten progressively better since Monday, but my voice is still froggy, and I'm still congested. If this is what it feels like with the vaccine, then what the hell does it feel like without it?

So far, my wife hasn't caught it, but unfortunately, it may be just a matter of time.

Final Thoughts

I don't know how to guess about May. But during May I'll be thinking about how to pass the sleep test. What actually worries me during drawdowns? What is so scary?

I'll also try and come up with an asset allocation plan that's simple and effective for my new indexing allocation.

Until next time, stay healthy, and remember that relationships are wealth.

March 2022: Net Worth, Q1 End Portfolio, Stock-Picking?

This is late.

In March, our net worth rose by 2.83% and 3.38% to $124,495 and €111,555 respectively.

Long story short: the stock market rallied in March, and my positions were brought along for the ride. I also sold off some of the camera stuff that I mentioned in February, which brought in some cash.

Here's my portfolio at the end of March:

A few notes:

• Berkshire Hathaway has grown into the largest position in the portfolio, overtaking my tax advantaged IRAs. Berkshire has done very well this year, and it's helped bolster the portfolio against some of the volatility.
• My tax advantaged accounts are still in a money market fund since the Vanguard Total World Stock Index is still below its 10 week moving average.
• A lot of positions are in significant drawdowns from their previous highs.

Do I Want to Keep Picking Stocks?

With all that, I'm considering whether I want to keep picking stocks. I devote a lot of time to this practice, and the results I get are - thus far at least - fine. Not disastrous. Not brilliant. I've basically performed as well as VT has over the past few years, while also spending a lot more time on the project.

At the same time, I have other activities I'd much rather be doing. I have a side hustle I'd like to build up. I'd like to spend more time developing my "hopes and dreams" career. When I listen to podcasts, they're usually investing podcasts. When I do research, it's often stock research. What if I could get rid of those activities and just focus on the stuff that truly brings me joy?

But then I remember I'm an expat and I'd be signing up for tax and reporting hassles. Doesn't mean I won't change this up at some point, but a decision that I could just choose were I living in the US is much more complicated.

This is the dilemma faced by American expats in Europe. I kind of want to get off this train, but the alternative is misrepresenting my actual address to a US brokerage and putting a lot of my assets in it in order to have access to US ETFs. I'm not comfortable with that, but I'm getting tired of waking up and thinking about or worrying about stocks and stock prices and trying to determine where I should put my money every month. I could just buy a few ETFs and be done with it, but then I'd be creating my own tax data and all that crap.

This is stupid. This is all so stupid, and these governments can't be bothered to actually fix the problem for us.

April Outlook

Well, April is almost over, so I have a good idea what's up.

My stocks have performed badly, but basically in line with the overall market.

We've spent some money on travel. We likely won't save much because of it. There's a family medical emergency in the US my wife is attending to, and that kind of stuff supersedes stock investments.

I've made a little money on the side, but I've also spent a good amount, so it's kind of a wash. On the whole, this camera switch has been expensive.

I also went to France for a weekend on someone else's dime. But it felt dishonorable to rely on their money the whole time, so I paid for some of it myself.

Until next time. Stay healthy, save what you can, and remember that your relationships are wealth.