2023 First Half Update

2023 Second Quarter Update:

The first quarter was full of re-evaluations of financial goals and strategies and was full of fear over impending disaster in my family. Back then, we had to make difficult decisions and have difficult conversations.

The second quarter of 2023 was much milder.

New All-Time High

After a year and a half of being in a net worth drawdown, we emerged at the end of June at a new all-time high. We're just shy of $150,000 at $149,097/€136,162. That's a quarter-over-quarter rise of 10.05%/9.05%.

The 2022 bear market, although not extreme by historical standards, was the worst extended drawdown we've had to live with during our married lives. Despite some losses, there were no disasters in our portfolios, and the stress lead to some necessary reappraisals of how best to allocate savings. I'm grateful for the lesson and happy to allocate most money to an ETF/mutual fund asset mix. While my stock picking has done well this year, I feel safer knowing that all of our eggs aren't in that basket.

The drawdown was exasperated by the drawdown of our incomes. My wife has a lull in her business as she changed strategies, and my extra income opportunities at work dried up. As the market corrected, we were unable to add money in any kind of aggressive way. However, both of those states have started to change: I've found new sources for additional work, and my wife's new business strategy is starting to pay off. It's exciting.

Family Disaster Averted

After much Sturm und Drang back in January and February, it appears that PoorParent will stay put. Staying put means staying in an uncomfortable but stable situation with a family member who has health problems.

It's clear that PoorParent isn't thrilled with this, but they also don't appear to be angry at me and Sib.

Honestly, Sib did most of the heavy lifting. I helped Sib define their own boundaries and see how they weren't respecting their own limits and desires. This lack of self-respect led to Sib not respecting my limits. But once Sib understood this, they had the uncomfortable conversation with PoorParent. Thus far, admittedly, I haven't spoken to PoorParent about my worries. They haven't brought it up, and I won't either.

Portfolio Performance

My individual stock portfolio returned 19.91% in the first half. This was mostly led by Greenbrick Partners and Apple Inc. Greenbrick is now a 1 bagger. It's had astounding performance. But so has Apple! Frankly, if there's any greatest mistake I've made while investing, it's selling even one share of Apple, and unfortunately, I've sold many more than one.

The laggard was Abbvie, which is facing increasing competition from Humira biosimilars. I may add more to the position if its price nears my purchase price.

The Wiseguy Portfolio as I've implemented it is hard to measure. Because it's across three different accounts and uses Vanguard "Admiral" funds in addition to ETFs, it means that getting close to the target weights is currently very tricky. Additionally, the iteration of the portfolio I call Wiseguy 2.0, which includes REITs, didn't take place until a few months ago.

An idealized version of the portfolio returned 12.07% in the first half of 2023. That underperformed the S&P 500, which returned 16.81%.

Second Half Financial Goals

As of yesterday, I have maxed out our 2023 IRA contributions. I put the final $2,000 into the US REITs portion because I refuse to hold a REITs ETF in my taxable accounts. Currently, I'm overweight REITs and US large-cap growth and through the rest of the year, I'll be adding to gold and the small cap value buckets in my taxable account.

We're also rebuilding our emergency fund. If we aim for 6 months of spending, then we need around €16,000, which we're not close to. I'm not planning on pulling a Ramsey and devoting every euro to that goal, however, and I will simply be adding monthly sums to it in addition to other saving. That kind of single-minded focus doesn't make sense when I have plenty of assets, and the risk to my livelihood is so low in comparison to the American "at will" employment reality.

That said, having extra cash would be reassuring.

We've also begun a small down payment fund. We're not devoting large sums to it yet, but it's frustrating not having anything saved for a better living situation.

My wife suggested a dog fund. We both want a dog someday, but we're concerned about the cost, so we've begun saving for it.

Wrap Up

I don't see any disasters on the horizon. The stock markets could always take a dive, which would be both a bummer and an opportunity. No matter what, we'll keep saving as best we can without running afoul of our dual tax situation. Until next time, stay healthy and keep saving. It adds up over time!

December 2022: Update and Full Year Summary

December was a great month. We had family visit us from the US over Christmas for the very first time. We traveled some. We ate some great meals and had a lot of laughs.

However, December was also the first time that our net worth was down in every metric that I track. There are four comparisons at the top of my spreadsheet: USD month over month, EUR month over month, USD year over year, and EUR year over year. For the first time, all of these metrics were negative.

Just like the stock market isn't the economy, your net worth isn't your life. But since this is a money blog, let's focus on the money part of things.

Net Worth Changes

Image: chart of our net worth in USD over time

In December, our net worth fell to $125,071/€116,780, which represents the following changes:

Metric	Percentage
Y/Y USD	-14.23%
Y/Y EUR	-8.79
M/M USD	-2.53%
M/M EUR	-5.71%

Maybe I can assuage my disappointment by creating a new metric: quarter over quarter. How's that look?

Metric	Percentage
Q/Q USD	6.83%
Q/Q EUR	-2.25%

So now one metric shows improvement. I'll take the win where I can I guess.

Our liquid net worth stood at $95,876/€89,521.

So what's up?

Inflation Devours All

The obvious big story is this:

• Due to the war, supply chain, stimulus programs, and energy shocks, inflation rose drastically.
• The Federal Reserve and other major central banks raised their benchmark interest rates to counteract this.
• Since the present value of equities is all future cash flows discounted to the present, both the discount rate and the - assumed - poorer quality of those cash flows put downward pressure on the value of stocks.
• Rising interest rates caused bond prices to fall.

We were not spared from this, and I took some serious hits on the large number of growth companies I had in my portfolio. They weren't the worst growth companies to have owned, but they were hit very hard anyway.

I took some steps to protect myself. In my IRAs, I sold in February due to trend following rules being triggered, which protected us there. I decided to reduce my exposure to individual companies and create the Wiseguy Portfolio, which is a kind of "all seasons" portfolio.

Image: Chart of portfolios in 2022: Green is my IRA, teal is my ETF account containing the Wiseguy Portfolio (started in May), red is S&P 500 benchmark, black is all portfolios together, yellow is individual stocks.

Finally, the effect of rising interest rates has caused a reduction in the estimated value of my pension. Since the pension is discounted at the rate of the 10 year treasury, rising rates reduce the future value. In a sense, this value is both real and imaginary; I'll never be able to pull out all this cash one way or the other, but I do have a guaranteed income stream in addition to government social security. It has value.

Spending

I've created a Sankey diagram that documents the flow of our money. For practical reasons, the numbers are slightly different in some cases compared to our actual budget, but overall this represents money received and spent/allocated well.

Image: A Sankey diagram showing the flow of money from income sources to spending categories.

Excluding tax, social security, and health insurance costs, our largest expenses fall into these categories:

• Rent (warm) (€10956.81)
• Groceries (€5984.66)
• My BLOW money (€4605.97)
• Travel costs (€3532.05)
• Her BLOW money (€3532.05)

A reminder: BLOW is anything we buy that is personal and doesn't require discussing with the other partner.

You can see the mark of inflation on our two largest household expenses. Our rent was raised in August, which was a bummer that upset my equilibrium for a while. Our grocery bill for the year rose from €5,158.22 in 2021 to €5984.66, which is a ~16% jump. Some of that could be carelessness on our part, but some is definitely climbing prices.

Our travel costs included a trip to the US for her, a trip to the US for me, a few weeks of fun in Europe in the summer, and a late year trip with the family who visited us over the holidays. As much as I'd like this number to be lower, there's a reality that an expat who has good relationships with his family will also likely have recurring large travel expenses to contend with.

Image: Chart of the EURUSD price in 2022

Unfortunately, my US trip coincided with a weak period for the euro against the dollar. This made the trip much more painful than it otherwise might have been.

Mindset Changes

There were three major changes in how I view our financial goals in 2022.

Cash

At several points, I felt hemmed in and without options. The most acute phase of this happened when we had our rent raised, but it was a recurring theme in the second half of the year. Yes, we had stock assets, but should we ever actually experience and emergency, our stock wealth would have to be sold off to actually give us flexibility. This increasingly felt intolerable to me, since I was sort of mentally double spending that money: it was both meant as a long term savings but also potentially a bail out, emergency, house, career change fund. It was untenable.

So we are now allocating much more towards cash. Savings accounts both in the US and Germany actually pay something now (though it's still crazy low in Germany). This allows us to pursue opportunities the way a big stock allocation can't.

The Implausibility of FIRE

It is unlikely that we will be able to retire early in any significant way. Perhaps that will change, but it won't change in the next few years, and in acknowledging that reality, I have to ask some questions.

For example, are there other career paths that might be more rewarding? If we have to work anyway, then why not do something that is genuinely enjoyable during that time? Perhaps staying put is the best option, but I should create the space where that's a choice rather than mandatory.

So much of the online financial world is fixated on this idea, that to acknowledge it may never be reality for us feels like a failure. However, my desire is to keep working. It always was, and the FIRE idea was mostly a way to give myself permission to pursue avenues that I find more fulfilling.

Stock Picking

Until this year, I'd exclusively been a stock picker. The US extraterritorial taxation regime has made the purchase of mutual funds tricky, and I'd believed I'd be able to handle individual stocks as the container for all our long term wealth.

It's safe to say that I was wrong.

I've grown as an investor, but I still make silly mistakes that should probably make it clear that stock picking ought not be my primary savings strategy. Yes, I've become less trigger happy, but I'm still too damned trigger happy. Just in the past few months, I sold several securities too early and missed out on rebounds. And my analysis is often rudimentary at best.

I've also discovered that focusing on stocks is not the best use of my time from a "quality of life" point of view. It's stressful and distracting. I have better questions to focus on and better uses of my time than worrying about whether such and such company faces an existential threat or is just going through a rough patch.

My returns thus far - while not catastrophic - align with returns I could more easily achieve by buying ETFs, and so that's what I'm mostly doing now. I just hope that the US/Germany thing doesn't bite me in the ass; if Germany adopts a PFIC type punitive taxation regime again for foreign mutual funds, I'm SOL. But best to save those worries for the future.

2023

The four big questions hanging over me now and likely throughout the year are as follows:

• Do I change jobs and potentially enter a riskier line of work in the hopes of greater life satisfaction and potential long term economic benefits? Or do I remain as I am now: basking in the weird safety of my current position, but potentially plagued by long term doubts around what might have been?
• How do I allocate limited savings for a potential risky life change?
• Do we participate in an expensive vacation that my family has planned out? We participated this year in Europe, but in summer 2023, it's further away and likely much more expensive. This is part of a larger question around family expectations and travel. I should probably write about this, but in general, I feel a lot of pressure to travel to see family, even though the prices are often higher for me, and my income is lower than the other people participating in the trip.
• Does the ticking time bomb of my poor Baby Boomer parent finally explode. There have been indications just in the past month that it might.

One change to the blog is that I will switch to quarterly updates rather than monthly. I find that I repeat myself too often month to month in these updates, and the movements within a month are often noisy.

With that, I leave you for now and wish you a happy and healthy 2023 full of great moments that let you forget about any financial stress you may have.

Update: March, 2021

In March our liquid net worth dropped 3.38% in USD and .26% in EUR to $91,767 and €77,834 respectively.

There were three major influences on these numbers:

1. The stock market had increased volatility, and it impacted a lot of the names in my portfolio. Growth stocks fell out of favor this month, and I have a bunch of those. The few "value" names that are in there, or names associated with value like Berkshire Hathaway, did pretty well.
2. The dollar strengthened against the euro. A month ago, it took 1.217 dollars to buy a euro, and now it only takes 1.179. That's a pretty quick drop, and you'll notice that despite the lower prices of my US stocks hurting our $ number, our € was basically flat.
3. We had a number of large expenses. In March we pay our estimated taxes, and it was also the month we had to pay for our tax preparation. We're expected two large payments from the German government (tax refund and help for businesses affected by the pandemic), but those haven't landed yet, so I'm not counting them.

A Year Since the Plunge

A lot has changed over the past year, to put it mildly. In March, 2020 we had the largest month over month change since I began writing this blog:

Our net worth dropped since this time in February by 12.16% in USD and 12.48% in EUR to $52,448 and €47,985 respectively.

The reason is obvious. Our stock portfolios fell precipitously as Europe and the United States responded aggressively to the COVID-19 pandemic.

Since then however, our year over year change is up 75% in USD. We certainly didn't save enough over the last year to explain that number; instead the stocks we own just did really well, and we plugged in money whenever we could.

If I can give myself credit for anything it's that I didn't lose my cool and sell everything. I did sell some right as the panic started, to be sure, but it was mostly tinkering around the edges. And that money stayed in the market (except for sales to close out our margin balance). So we got to enjoy the weird ride up over the last year.

There's always some hindsight bias. If I'd known how the market would react, I wouldn't have sold anything, including the margined positions. I would have reduced our emergency fund and would have thrown it and the stimmy payment from the US government into the market as soon as I could.

But I was scared, and it was hard enough to just hold and add a little. Even Warren Buffett sold the airlines, and at the time it seemed like a reasonable decision. I sold my retailers (Simon Property and Foot Locker), and that was - with hindsight bias - a terrible decision, but it looked like we were entering a new paradigm, and assumptions I used in buying those positions weren't strong enough to keep me holding them, so I sold and ate my largest losses ever.

April Forecast

As mentioned earlier, we expect a couple large infusions from the Germans, and someday we'll get those last two American stimulus checks, though I have no expectations for when. As always, the market could have a convulsion in either direction. No matter what though, I'm going to be making my monthly stock purchases today.

Net Worth Update: June and July, 2020

In June, our liquid net worth¹ increased by 8.01% in USD and 5.7% in EUR to $68,000 and €60,606 respectively. In July, it increased 13.67% and 9.48% to $77,298 and €66,350 respectively.

The biggest factor in both months was the stock market. Like anyone who held positions similar to the overall market, we experienced terrific growth. It is counterintuitive that in such a moment, with as much economic hardship as exists, that the stock market should be on such a tear. I honestly don't know exactly what it is that the market sees, and I won't pretend to. I listen to a lot of stock market talk, and some experts claim that this is a bubble that's likely to pop at any moment, while others say otherwise. It's pointless to try and act on this chatter. I know what my time horizon is, and I hold.

Cash is King (Sometimes)

One thing I haven't been doing, however, is buying. Our savings the past few months has gone exclusively to cash. That's not a stock market timing call but rather a series of tactical moves given the relative uncertainty of the moment. I know that we have certain large expenses in the future, but I don't know what my wife's income will be, and it's hard to guess it more than a few weeks out. Therefore, I've been preemptively saving to knock out those costs whenever they arise, in order to prevent having to scramble to pay for them from that month's cashflow. You might be thinking, "Well, duh, that's the way savings works," and you'd be right. But our situation has changed enough that we have to do this for stuff that we could previously just pay for out of cashflow.

That means saving early for tax preparation costs, estimated taxes, and large purchases. We've also been continually adding to our emergency fund. An emergency fund is basically early saving for known recurring expenses in addition to surprises, after all. One unsettling aspect of this pandemic is that my industry has been especially hard hit, and my seemingly secure job doesn't feel as secure anymore.

A couple of large cash infusions also buoyed these months' changes. In June, we deposited the stimulus check that was sent out. US expats who file their taxes were also eligible, and we were happy for the money. Secondly, my employer paid me early for August, and without any message from them, I truly don't know what that was about (new employee clicked the wrong button on the bank website maybe? I've done it).

And on top of that, because most of our cash is in the euro, the recent upward spike of the euro's value has made that lump more valuable in USD.

Vacation?

Although it's summer vacation time in Germany, we have decided to stay home. And by home, I mean our apartment in Germany. We contemplated some trips, but hotel prices in Germany weren't low enough to really make it worth our while. Outside of Germany, some prices are incredible, but we quickly wrote off getting in a plane or bus or long distance train, especially since those prices also aren't all that great.

I will say, the FOMO is real. The weather's also not been very summer-like, so it's been kind of lonely and dark. We've used the time to take care of some home improvement projects, and I've been using FaceTime more often to get in touch with American family.

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1. This includes: bank accounts, investments (excluding German private pension but including US IRAs), credit cards, rewards programs valued at 1¢ per point, cash, installment plans and any other debts. ↩︎

Self-Assessment: Early Coronavirus Edition

Now that our situation has settled into our new reality, which I'll call "Semi-Self-Imposed Lockdown," I have some time to think through our position and evaluate what's going well, and what's not going so well.

What we did well leading up to this crisis

• We have an emergency fund. I don't think it's large enough, but I'll get into that with the critiques section.
• We have a stable income. My job is such that I am unlikely to be laid off during this crisis. My wife's work scales up and down, which makes it more vulnerable, but there's no point where she's "fired": work will simply start to come back over time. Because of her stability via my income, she may come out of this with an even stronger position.
• We have liquid investments that could be turned into cash if necessary. I really don't want to turn them into cash, but if it were absolutely necessary, we could probably survive a year off of our current investments.
• We always tended to buy large amounts of shelf-stable food. We still had to go to the grocery store a few times at the start, but we could have eaten our stores of stuff if we felt it wasn't worth the risk.
• We have a large amount of unused credit on American credit cards. If we had to, we could run up a giant credit card bill. It's wouldn't be ideal, but having credit is better than not having it.
• We live in a country with a social safety net and a willingness to help its residents.

Critiques

• Our emergency fund wasn't large enough. Currently, we could last a month to two months with our emergency fund. Despite my employment stability, it's not a 100% guarantee that I come out the other side of this with a job if the German economy collapses for years. Although I'm unlikely to lose my job, I am also unlikely to easily get a new job quickly if I lose this one.
• We don't own our own home outright. Renting has long seemed the wise course of action, but not having to make rent payments would go a long way towards easing my mind.
• We don't have enough over-the-counter drugs. We have aspirin and some anti-histamines, but we have no expectorants, NSAIDS other than aspirin, acetaminophen, not to mention rubbing alcohol. The German Apotheke system is great when you get a prescription, but it makes getting certain normal items more challenging than in the US.
• My investment portfolio is not diversified enough amongst asset classes. I should be holding some bonds, for example, and I'm not.
• I came into this with margin debt. Holding margin debt years into a long-run bull market is dumb. Full stop.
• I underestimated the risk of pandemic to my investment portfolio and to my life.
• We should have larger food stores. They sell giant bags of rice here, and we should probably always have at least one. Likewise lots of pasta. Likewise lots of soy milk (the cartons keep for a long time at room temperature). The risk isn't so much that we'd run out of food due to shortages, but instead it's risky going outside right now to stand in a supermarket line. Minimizing grocery store trips is important right now.

Some Action Steps

First, I need to separate out our savings into clearer buckets. I've been dumping everything into the Tagesgeldkonto (savings account), even though I'd mentally earmarked it for taxes or tax prep costs. One account should be strictly for the emergency money, and it should get steady contributions to it until it reaches the famed 6-months-of-expenses level. It's possible that FATCA will make this more difficult than it should be.

Second, we should be saving money to buy property. That needn't have a specific end date, but it's one of those things that gives us optionality should a compelling offer arise. Somewhere I read that Ramit Sethi saves some money to buy a house/apartment not because he definitely wants to buy one but because having the option is worth it.

Third, I need to go to the Apotheke and pick up some useful over-the-counter drugs. I could also order them online.

Fourth, I should build a 10% position in long-term bonds. I can buy individual bonds in Interactive Brokers no problem. The interest rates are garbage, but they provide stability and rebalancing potential in terrible stock market situations. And at the end, you get your money back.

Fifth, I shouldn't use margin.

Sixth, this blog post is my attempt to come to terms with pandemic risk.

Seventh, honestly it would be irresponsible to try and build up large amounts of food storage right now due to the general run on the grocery stores that's happening. But once the shopping situation improves, we should get on that.

Rethink Risk

Lastly, I need to reevaluate risk. I'm not going to do that by selling stocks right now. That moment has passed. But the way I was using my money was clearly riskier than I appreciated or wanted.

I have to find a new way to judge my risk tolerance and build a portfolio of assets that match it. At the same time, this crisis will subside, and we all have to make sure that we're not just fighting the last war but imagining what new surprises might come our way.