2024 First Half Update

Our net worth was $180,483/€167.735, representing a quarter-over-quarter change of -.71% and -.34% respectively. Quarter-over-quarter this was flat performance, but our first-half wealth growth in 2024 remains decent.

The Past Three Months

We've incurred a lot of spending in the past few months, which has slowed our savings rate. For one, our summer travel plans got expensive all of a sudden. We delayed buying our tickets to the US, which caused the price to creep up.

However, there's some spending that's just the result of carelessness. Some money leaks are happening, and I need to figure out where those are. For example, we're regularly exceeding our grocery budget. Some expenses are deliberate choices that nevertheless feel careless. I bought a new iPhone, which is expensive. My wife has doubled some of her lessons. I've been making some purchases in one of my side businesses. Each choice feels small in the moment, but they add together into reduced savings over time.

The stock market was also turbulent the past three months. I contemplated our wealth reaching the $200,000 in my last post, but as I hit "publish", the market gods reminded me not to get too complacent. That said, I wasn't worried about it as it was happening. Since I've adopted the ETF strategy, my mental health around investing remains healthy.

Third Quarter Forecast

I'm glad I waited before writing this post. In the latter half of June and in early July, we were expecting to have to pay enormous sums to the Finanzamt (the German tax authority) in estimated taxes. Because the pandemic depressed our incomes, our estimated taxes also correspondingly fell. When our incomes recovered, the Finanzamt wanted to adjust our estimated tax payments to new unheard-of levels. Thanks to the quick work of our tax preparer, we got the necessary paperwork organized and dispatched, which saved us from having to raid our savings just to cover estimated taxes.

It was a stressful moment, and it reminded me that I need to be more actively saving self-employment money as estimated tax funds. We shouldn't have allowed ourselves to get into that position.

That said, we're still digesting our elevated travel costs from the past few months. This will hamper saving. We also paid an outstanding tax bill from 2022, and that alone may wipe out any savings we accrue. It's hard to say without knowing the future.

Until next time, stay healthy.

First Quarter Update 2024

We had an excellent first quarter of 2024. Our net worth rose 8.42%/%10.82 quarter over quarter to $182,025/€168,542.

After I'd tallied everything, it hit me that we might cross the $200,000 mark sometime this year. It wouldn't even take outstanding performance. Even if our wealth compounds at 7% over the next two years, we'd pass that threshold sometime in 2025. Naturally, it's best to not become attached to any rate of return, but I'm trying to steel myself for the fact that growth might come more quickly than I'd anticipated.

Naturally, the primary mechanism of this is stock market growth. I've been saving every month, but the market has been easily outpacing my contributions. It's also been outpacing my spending (I went to the United States and bought a new iPhone this quarter). However, the reverse could just as easily be the case. So far in April, our portfolios have plunged more than our current year contributions. That kind of volatility is to be expected, but it's still bracing to see. Our contributions are gentle rows in a canoe that's already flowing through the water, but the current can still take us in unexpected directions.

Pension Valuation

We crossed the $100,000 mark sometime in late 2020, and I didn't recognize it at the time. I hadn't begun adding my German pension to the calculation, so life continued as normal. Frankly, I could probably goose the current numbers to equal greater than $200k now; all I'd have to do is value my pension as the equivalent of my contributions. But without a good reason to do so, I won't do that. When considering a pension rationally, the value of it can only equal or be greater than the value of contributions when viewed in hindsight.

One new emergent factor in my pension calculation is the reduction in life expectancy in the United States. Being American, I use the Social Security actuarial tables, and I have discovered that life expectancy has dropped by several years. I suspect this has to do with COVID-19, but regardless of the reason, with a potentially shortened lifespan, the valuation decreases.

Second Quarter Forecast

This has already been and will continue to be an expensive quarter.

The stock market thus far has been harsh to all factors. The one bright spot has been my small gold ETF position, but this is a mild retardant to the drawdown. Ex-US has also been relatively stable. However, this drawdown has already been nearly as severe as the cost of any of the spending I'm about to mention. If the drawdown continues, it will easily be greater than whatever spending we embark on.

My wife and I have decided it's time to do some remodeling and lifestyle upgrading, and we're spending on new bits of furniture and other household accouterments. It's nothing extravagant, but it's a cost. We will likely re-enter the world of TV ownership sometime in the next few months, for example. Ikea has also been padding its cash flow statements with our money.

We also plan to visit the US briefly this summer. My wife has an ill sibling, and we're taking some time to visit them. We also recently helped financially support this sibling's adult child, who had a cash crunch. Although they offered to reimburse us, I agree with Dave Ramsey that loaning money to family members is a way to hurt that relationship, so we gifted the money instead.

We also owe taxes from 2022. We don't know when the Finanzamt will hit us with the bill we know is due, but it's coming any day now.

Despite all that, we're doing well. Until next time. Stay happy and healthy.

July and August 2022 Updates: Travel, Inflation, Rent

In most of July and early August, I was taking advantage of my summer vacation to travel through Europe and the United States. Meanwhile, Europe's bad news kept piling up.

With power prices rising and the rivers drying up and a war and the currency falling in value, it's a worrying moment here. To put it mildly. I've been captivated by the potential for major disruptions to our lives and for the lives of millions of Europeans whose livelihoods rely on industries, which themselves rely on inputs such as natural gas and electricity, both of which have exploded in price.

What does Germany do if its major industries shut down? I don't know.

That said, even while vacationing within Europe, it all felt far away. Shops were open and happy to sell over-priced chocolates or locally made clothing. The wine and cheese in France were still excellent. Paris is still beautiful. The museums remain treasures. People were generally pleasant and happy to see us. My family who visited France loved it and some said they wanted to move there.

To be fair, when I visited the US, all of its problems felt far away too. American food is great. Everyone is nice in a way that feels increasingly foreign and yet increasingly welcome. I think "Maybe I should move back!" after I've touristed in the US, but when I speak to my younger family members about their jobs, the prospect seems less appealing.

All of them are in the rat race. All of them are working their butts off. All of them don't get enough vacation time. I didn't ask about health care, but I know what that's like. All of them are likely earning more than I do, but the price for that is enormous uncertainty and very little freedom with their time. Whenever I spoke about my job, I couldn't help but feel like I was bragging, even though I'm somewhat unhappy with my career and am considering other prospects.

But as soon as the words leave my lips, "Six weeks summer vacation.... yes, it's paid," I know I have something valuable that my working-age American family doesn't have. It's a tricky social minefield, and it's an inevitable topic of conversation because I just have so much free time in the summer. Meanwhile, my American loved ones balance seeing me with their work schedules.

We'll see though. If Germany can't manage its current troubles, it's possible that the system that supports me and my colleagues falls apart. That's unlikely, but it can't be ruled out.

Net Worth: Inflation and Stocks

Our net worth increased 7.46% in July ($123,947) and fell 2.01% in August ($121,453) in USD. In euros, it rose 9.45% in July (€121,160) and rose .44% in August (€121,697). Liquid net worth at the end of August stood at $89,890 and €90,070.

Image: Chart of our USD net worth over time. Notice the value of euro debt decreasing quickly.

The falling euro is scary. On the one hand, my euro wealth continues to rise because of my overwhelming reliance on dollar assets for my savings. On the other, I have received a large pay cut relative to the US, which I felt acutely whenever I paid for a restaurant bill in the US. Inflation in the US plus a falling euro equals pain for euro jobbers like me.

The upsides are that if there's an emergency over here, my USD cash has become more valuable in euros. Likewise, the value of my European debt has decreased significantly in dollar terms.

Stock Market

The stock market since June has been volatile. The S&P 500 rose in price in July to touch the 200 day moving average and has since fallen. My assumption is that it's in a downtrend, and so my IRA remains in a money market account. Ironically, my lack of action since February in the IRA has been the best trade of my life. The interest I earn in it has gone up over time even as the overall market continues trending downwards.

So far, despite the new downward price action, I don't feel any urge to make major portfolio changes.

My Evolving Rent Thoughts

I have to admit: I've been triggered by the rent increase we got in June. Until then, I'd never had a landlord increase their rent on me. And for him to do it then, just as all our economic realities were getting more precarious, felt especially grating.

I admit that this is irrational. He's also an investor, and investors want rising cash flows from their investments. I get it. But I don't like being a landlord's cash flow¹, and so we've been looking at buying properties again. I still hate the upfront cost of buying something here, but man, I hate having my rent raised. So I'll keep looking.

For a few weeks there, I felt like I was in a rush to buy something. But that has subsided. I've calmed down. I'm still worried about a potential rent increase next year too, but I see that our requirements for a property are specific enough that I can't and shouldn't just buy any old thing.

Other Notes: Computer, Refund, €9 ticket

In July, we bought a new computer for my wife. Her's starting crashing, and since she relies on a stable computer for her work, we bought a new MacBook Air for her. We were going to pay for this from occupational cash flow, but amazingly we finally got the second federal stimulus payment in the form of our 2020 tax return refund. Plus interest! That more or less covered the cost, and it came at a perfect time.

That said, we're going to be financially tight for awhile here. She's making a major change in her business, and the short term effects are likely to be reduced cash flow in the short term with increased cash flow later since she'll be in greater control of her time and pricing. She's being bold, and I'm happy for her.

Finally, we will both miss Germany's €9 ticket, which allowed us both to travel throughout Germany for €18 total per month in June, July, and August. It's back to the old complicated expensive system here, and we'll mourn grievously.

That's all I have for this time around. Take care of yourselves and your families. Until next time.

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1. Especially for this landlord. I like our apartment and its location, but his management of this building leaves a lot to be desired, and we're currently fighting with him about our Nebenkosten. ↩︎

Update: November 2021

As of November 26, our net worth had appreciated the prior month by 2.86% in USD and 5.4% in EUR to $117,153 and €103,492 respectively.

Our performance in November was aided by strong performance from some of our stocks. We also received several large refunds due to the lowered income in my wife's business resulting from the coronavirus disruptions.

New Date of Record in December

This is the first month where I felt like I should wait until the final day of the month to record the totals. I chose November 26 years ago because it was around when the Deutsche Rentenversicherung made its withdrawal from our German checking account, and it was guaranteed to be before my job paid me. My concept with this timing was wanting to record whatever remains after making all the monthly expenses. Wealth is, after all, that which remains.

The day I recorded our net worth, the market started moving a lot. October 26 through November 25 was a very strong stock market month. From 26 onwards, things started moving downwards, and they moved down a lot. It feels weird to say that we were "up" in November, when the final days of the month were so consequential.

So I'll likely change to recording our net worth on the final day of the month, with my salary subtracted.

Liquid Net Worth

In my spreadsheet, I've also added a "Liquid Net Worth" section. This is basically what I could access if I were to need a bunch of cash. Now, we don't own a home, and I've never included our physical assets in our net worth calculation, so this number isn't drastically different.

I would like to be able to glance at a number that gives me an idea of the number of years we could live off our assets. That means, that retirement accounts and rewards programs don't get counted. Were I to add physical assets and my pensions into the full calculation, they would also be omitted.

At the end of November, this number was $97,131/€85,805. Since we spend about €25,000 a year, it means we could quit our jobs and live about 3.5 years. Were we to cut expenses, we could lengthen that out.

December Outlook

My December Christmas bonus and extra money will be offset by some expenses having to do with some trips, one of which we've already made and another we might make if Omicron doesn't ruin it for us. Obviously, not doing the trip is better for our finances, but, man, we have to live our lives.

Until next time. Stay healthy/Bleib gesund.

Net Worth Update: June and July, 2020

In June, our liquid net worth¹ increased by 8.01% in USD and 5.7% in EUR to $68,000 and €60,606 respectively. In July, it increased 13.67% and 9.48% to $77,298 and €66,350 respectively.

The biggest factor in both months was the stock market. Like anyone who held positions similar to the overall market, we experienced terrific growth. It is counterintuitive that in such a moment, with as much economic hardship as exists, that the stock market should be on such a tear. I honestly don't know exactly what it is that the market sees, and I won't pretend to. I listen to a lot of stock market talk, and some experts claim that this is a bubble that's likely to pop at any moment, while others say otherwise. It's pointless to try and act on this chatter. I know what my time horizon is, and I hold.

Cash is King (Sometimes)

One thing I haven't been doing, however, is buying. Our savings the past few months has gone exclusively to cash. That's not a stock market timing call but rather a series of tactical moves given the relative uncertainty of the moment. I know that we have certain large expenses in the future, but I don't know what my wife's income will be, and it's hard to guess it more than a few weeks out. Therefore, I've been preemptively saving to knock out those costs whenever they arise, in order to prevent having to scramble to pay for them from that month's cashflow. You might be thinking, "Well, duh, that's the way savings works," and you'd be right. But our situation has changed enough that we have to do this for stuff that we could previously just pay for out of cashflow.

That means saving early for tax preparation costs, estimated taxes, and large purchases. We've also been continually adding to our emergency fund. An emergency fund is basically early saving for known recurring expenses in addition to surprises, after all. One unsettling aspect of this pandemic is that my industry has been especially hard hit, and my seemingly secure job doesn't feel as secure anymore.

A couple of large cash infusions also buoyed these months' changes. In June, we deposited the stimulus check that was sent out. US expats who file their taxes were also eligible, and we were happy for the money. Secondly, my employer paid me early for August, and without any message from them, I truly don't know what that was about (new employee clicked the wrong button on the bank website maybe? I've done it).

And on top of that, because most of our cash is in the euro, the recent upward spike of the euro's value has made that lump more valuable in USD.

Vacation?

Although it's summer vacation time in Germany, we have decided to stay home. And by home, I mean our apartment in Germany. We contemplated some trips, but hotel prices in Germany weren't low enough to really make it worth our while. Outside of Germany, some prices are incredible, but we quickly wrote off getting in a plane or bus or long distance train, especially since those prices also aren't all that great.

I will say, the FOMO is real. The weather's also not been very summer-like, so it's been kind of lonely and dark. We've used the time to take care of some home improvement projects, and I've been using FaceTime more often to get in touch with American family.

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1. This includes: bank accounts, investments (excluding German private pension but including US IRAs), credit cards, rewards programs valued at 1¢ per point, cash, installment plans and any other debts. ↩︎

Net Worth Update: October, 2019

Our numbers increased to $55,126 and €49,753, which is a month over month rise by 5.97% and 4.44% respectively.

This was almost entirely due to the performance of the stock market. If you follow the market at all, you know that the S&P 500 hit new all-time highs in October, and that momentum brought my collection of individual names along for the ride. I'm finally back in the black, and I'm curious if it will actually stick this time or not.

We saved just under €1500 of our income, which amounts to a 34% savings rate (of the money that comes into our tax account). We overspent in October though, so that's going to cut into the amount I can save in November.

We also bought a plane ticket for my wife to visit her family in the USA. Ticket prices were reasonable, and she wants to support a family member who's going through a tough time.

Improved Groceries Spending?

Although I'd hoped we could keep our grocery bill down, we ultimately spent much more than budgeted this month. I'm still a bit confused about the result.

Part of the challenge is that I've joined a gym and am working out a lot. I need to eat more because of this, and at first, I was trying to do it with cheap bulk options like lentils, onions, oatmeal, frozen peas, etc., but my digestive system just couldn't handle it. I've eaten plenty of high fibre foods in my life, and the amount of discomfort I experienced eating these less expensive options was confusing.

I'm still trying to eat mostly cheap foods, but there's no escaping that I'm eating more of everything, and that has a cost. On the other side of the ledger, my alcohol consumption has dropped significantly, which is a major savings.

First Credit Card Product Change

I followed through with a product change from the Citi ThankYou Premier after the annual fee hit my statement. I tried asking for a retention bonus, but the bank had nothing for me, so I product changed to the Rewards+ card and got the fee refunded. We'll get to keep the accumulated points, so I'll be on the lookout for a chance to use them at some point.

Before I switched the card, I did the math, and it didn't make any sense to have two cards with annual fees. I couldn't spend enough to accumulate enough points to justify the fees on two different cards. Part of the challenge is that so much stuff in Germany still can't be paid for with a credit card. Because bank transfers are so easy here, credit cards haven't found a toe hold in all sorts of markets that would otherwise be an option for us to spend on.

November Outlook

My wife should be getting some novel payments this month from some additional work she did. I got some extra money from some extra work that I did, so money inflow isn't a problem.

That said, trips to the USA always cost something, and the family member in distress might also need some help financially. That's an unexpected turn, but we'll try to help if we can.

Aaaaaand the shoe will eventually drop on some dental costs. I'm not sure why it's taking so long though.

Until next time.

Net Worth Update: August, 2019

Our net worth increased to $52,326 and €47,141, representing a growth of 1.7% and 1.98% respectively month over month.

Investment Volatility

I hadn't expected a positive return this month because of the trade war and subsequent market sell offs. It hurt our numbers, but that's the life for anyone holding risk assets.

I'm getting pretty good and dealing with the volatility. The past year or so has really opened my eyes to what the markets can do as a whole and what can happen to individual stocks. Some of my positions have really gotten hurt the past month, but I don't see any reason to sell them, so I'll just sit tight and consider what they'll look like in ten or more years.

Larger Income

The big reason our number was up was because I got paid a bunch of extra money for some extra work I did, and my wife worked through the summer rather than travel to the US with me. When we take our trips abroad, we have to not only reckon with the costs of the trip itself but the opportunity costs associated with her missing work. Things slow down in the summer here, but they don't grind to a halt, so she can still earn decent money.

Vacation Costs

The difference in vacation costs this year vs. last year were enormous. The flights were paid for with Citi ThankYou points and some taxes and fees, and then I spent a few hundred bucks while there. Everything we did that was sort of fancy was paid for by family, and had they not wanted those things, I could have done without. The goal of these trips to connect with them rather than have a fancy vacation. I'd be just as happy sitting in their living rooms as on a boat or beach.

I didn't pay for housing, because they housed me. I never paid for a hotel and was welcomed into family homes for the duration. I try to be a good house guest, and they're happy to have me, but that could change if their circumstances change.

It will be hard to ever switch back to the vacation style where my wife and I travel together for several weeks to various corners of the US. We're already planning a targeted trip for her to see her family directly that will require probably no hotels or rental cars or long drives since I won't be there. And if she does that, and if some family visits me, then maybe we can avoid a trip to the US next summer.

Turning Stuff into Money

I sold a camera this month, and although I enjoyed the camera and will miss using it, the money hitting my hand in return for it felt good.

We have several things that I really need to get onto Facebook Marketplace and Ebay Kleinanzeigen. I was shocked how easy it was, and these services reminded me of Craigslist minus all the weird stuff.

I also sold an old iPad while in the US to Gazelle. I should have done it years ago as it only netted me ~ $26. But, hey, that was money I didn't have before, and now I don't have a device just collecting dust and mental space.

September Forecast

I bet we're going to lose money this next month. I have an enormous dentist bill to pay, and we didn't earn a ton of money last month. We also have a giant tax pre-payment to make, so there you go.

But the market could spike, and if we restrain our spending, then it could all be a miraculous wash.

Net Worth Update: July, 2019

Our net worth in July rose 7.3% and 9.73% to $51,451 and €46,228 respectively. We cracked $50k for the time being.

The big drivers behind this upward move were my summer bonus and the stock market. With the bonus, we were able to pay for our tax advisor as well as immigration fees from cash flow rather than dipping into savings, while still having a positive savings rate. I also earned some extra money from some extra side work.

Meanwhile, the stock market really went on a tear. Some of my laggard positions started to recover, and some of the German stocks finally had some small rebounds. I'm finally at an overall unrealized gain in the portfolio, which is reassuring.

Trip to U.S.A.

I'm currently in America, and although I'm trying to be judicious, I'm spending more money than I wish I were. Part of it is just social: if friends and family want to do something fun together, it's hard to say no when I only have limited time with them. To be honest, I don't really want to say no, and I don't want them to feel like they need to support me while here.

More surprising: America is really expensive. I'm always shocked by this, but Germany has maintained lower prices pretty well, so everything feels like a price shock when I come back. Beer, for example, is priced absurdly high relative to Germany. I find food in general more expensive. I'm sure there are some areas where there's a less of a difference or even a slight tilt towards lower prices in America, but so far on this trip, I'm getting killed by the high prices.

I'm not looking forward to updating the budget spreadsheet when I get more time for that. But I am having fun, and I'm glad I made the trip.

December, 2018 Net Worth Update and Year End Review

UPDATE: I made a mistake when I initially posted this. In my spreadsheet, I double counted one of our credit card liabilities. We were still down for the month, but not quite as much as I originally wrote here. The updated numbers are $37,014.97 and €32,497.78 respectively. I'll leave the post as-is though since from a high level it remains correct.

Our net worth dropped in December to $36,153.59 or €31,741.52. That's a one month change of about -4.75%.

Since the majority of whatever wealth we have is in the form of stocks, we were hit hard by the sell-off in equities. Anyone paying attention to the markets this past month would have seen the kind of fast paced elevator down that market pundits have been scaring us about for years. Our savings rate didn't spare us from the damage.

We're still well up from a year ago though, and that's the perspective I want to keep in mind. Equities are for long-terms positions. I'm not a trader, and month to month moves whether up or down can only cause heartbreak if you get too emotionally invested in them.

This month had a few novel transactions worth mentioning. I got my Christmas bonus, which I always appreciate. At the same time, we had to pay our estimated taxes to the German government for the fourth quarter, so it was basically a wash. We also received a bit of Christmas money from relatives and a larger sum from a relative specifically earmarked to support a hobby of my wife's.

Year-End Review

So how'd we do this year? Our net worth is up around 33% in dollars from one year ago. That's entirely savings-rate based since our equity positions have been all over the place. As that net worth number grows, any year over year growth is going to come increasingly from investment performance.

Investment Performance

And my investment performance this year was bad at a YTD drop of 13% (I'm only considering my taxable brokerage account). Some of it was just the way the markets moved. For people following the US markets, it was a volatile year with big drops in February and then the last months of the year, but if you were invested in just about anything outside of the US, ho ho ho, you had a rough year.

How could I have known that at the exact moment I'd begin investing in German companies, it was at the peak of the German market? I began buying in October 2017, and this chart is the daily chart of the DAX from the past year:

It's actually uncanny how some of my German purchases happened at the exact tops of their cycles. The companies seemed cheap when I bought them, and they seem cheaper now, but that doesn't mean anything in the near term. The German companies were a drag on my performance over the whole year, even when I was doing well in other parts of the portfolio.

Some of the bad performance was from me trying things and discovering I don't have the temperament for them. I tried shorting some stocks, and I tried day-trading a few times. They're not my thing, and I'll avoid those activities in the future. Doing either triggers too much adrenaline and fear in me. Regardless of investment performance, I just don't want to live like that.

I also changed investment strategies in the middle of the year. I did a lot of backtesting and research to come up with a reasonable strategy, and I implemented it. I'm trying to control risk as best I can with smart position sizing and clear sell rules, but I do recognize that this strategy can be extremely volatile. As we get older, I have some ideas for how to reduce risk further within this current strategy, but for now, I'm being aggressive within my rules.

Recognizing my previous mistakes, I wrote a long document explaining the strategy and the rules. I've already referred to this document at times when I doubted my current approach, which makes this one of the best decisions I've made all year money-wise.

Savings

For our savings, we were somewhere around 25%. It's not exceptional, but it's not horrible either. I'd like to get this number up in 2019, but there are some genuinely life-improving expenses that may need to take priority if they become a possibility.

In 2018, the big overarching expenses were our rent as well as a trip we took to the US. Moving doesn't feel worth it. Rents are going up in Germany, and by staying put, we get to keep our rent stable while prices rise around us. I've looked at smaller apartments in our neighborhood, and their prices are approaching ours despite their smaller size. We could move further away, but our life satisfaction would plunge. Plus, my wife doesn't want to move, and neither do I.

After deliberation, I am going to the US this summer. I bought tickets using credit card points, and my wife and I will take our trips separately. I'm not thrilled about that entirely, to be honest, but the cost savings are enormous to having more focused trips back rather than larger multi-family tours. She can also work while I'm in the US and vice versa, so there's less opportunity cost.

We saved a bit on our tax preparation costs too. There are some tax people recommended to expats like us who speak English, but ouch they can charge a lot. They're very good, so don't get me wrong, but at some point you have to ask if what you're getting is worth the unusually high price. In our case, we were getting our taxes back in two weeks (fast) and we could communicate in English. But we speak German, so why not find someone less expensive who's good enough?

We could also do our own taxes, but for now I'm more comfortable with a professional in Germany on our side, and I'll keep doing my own US tax return.

So there's a wrap-up of the year for this abroad saver. I've learned a lot this year, and here's hoping for a more effective and smarter 2019. Cheers and have a happy new year.

Cash Flow Parasites

It's that time of the year when I'm looking back at how we spent our money, and I'm considering where it all went and how to improve things next year.

The various categories I use to budget our money does illuminate things a bit. For example our biggest expense by far is our rent plus Nebenkosten (a German term for the utilities managed by the landlord bundled into the monthly rent payment).

But beyond that, the picture becomes murkier. We have transportation costs and various utilities and our BLOW categories, but what's the glue holding that together?

I don't have a way to add this to the spreadsheet, but I'm now considering cash flow parasites as overarching spending concepts that bind several categories together. Basically, these are purchases that require other purchases over time. The initial purchase fits into the budget as a single item, but over time that initial purchase requires incremental purchases later. This is similar to lifetime cost of ownership, but it's broader.

For example, let's look at some parasites that we don't own. The most obvious example is a car. The car itself has an initial upfront cost, but there are the following obvious ongoing costs:

• Fuel
• Insurance
• Repairs
• Parking
• Registration
• If purchased with a loan, then the ongoing interest cost
• Asset depreciation

That stuff is obvious. Less obvious are the following:

• Environmental harm and contribution to air quality health problems
• Risk of accident
• Risk of regulation
• Legal risk from poor driving or impaired driving
• Risk of theft or vandalism
• Municipalities being forced to devote ever more space for automobile use
• Stress from traffic
• Overcommitment of time due to transportation flexibility
• Opportunity cost from higher amount of money in cash emergency fund to cover emergency car costs
• Opportunity cost from spent car money not invested in compounding assets
• Opportunity cost from saving the money in cash to buy the car

Whenever I think of buying a car, all this stuff pops into my head. I remember the stress of driving. I remember the major repairs. I remember the couple of accidents I was involved in (not at fault). And after considering all that, and despite the downsides of not having a car, I just can't justify buying one again.

A less high stakes example of a cash flow parasite is a television. We don't own one because a television contains the following costs:

• The television itself
• The devices attached to it
• The content played through it
• The furniture used to display it
• The floor space given over to it
• The electricity
• The time devoted to it and the feeling that it should be used due to the invested money (a kind of sunk cost fallacy)
• The ongoing maintenance and replacement/upgrading of attached devices
• The exposure to advertisements and societal propaganda that convinces us what's normal and how much money we should be spending to be like the beautiful people on TV

One reason we don't own these things is because of the high negative cash flow costs I associate with them. But that doesn't mean I don't have cash flow parasites, so where are they in our budget?

Cell phones are a big one. We use iPhones, so there was a substantial initial cost to them, which has been tolerable because of their ongoing use (we don't upgrade regularly, and I hand my model to my wife when I'm done with it). But there are ongoing negative cash flow associated with them:

• Cellular costs (contract-less month-to-month)
• App and content purchases
• Connective cloud services
• Time spent
• Internet at home
• Stress from being always connected
• Stress from the impulse to upgrade or buy companion devices
• Depreciation of the phone itself
• Exposure to what's "normal", similar to TV, but maybe even worse due to social networks functioning like a "keeping up with the Joneses" 24/7
• Maintenance (battery replacement, headphone replacement, charging cable replacement, screen repair, phone cases)
• Electricity
• Risk of theft

So what's the overall cost to it? That's really tricky. Some parasites have a clear overall cost, but some are more elusive or are shared with other cash flow parasites. I think the 30,000 foot view is probably enough to say that the costs over several years are substantial. There was a time before I had an iPhone and a time after it, and the costs before were zero since it was a whole different category of expenses. There was no parallel to what we have today.

At the same time, there are major upsides to having an iPhone. I'm just not sure that if I could get a full accounting of the exact cost that I would say they were worth that exact number. Using a smartphone means sort of stumbling into ongoing expenses, but I'm not sure how to back out of those at this point. Even if I use an iPhone for 7 years, that's still less phone-value than using a landline phone that costs maybe 30€ for potentially several decades. What exactly is the goal of having this thing? Sometimes it feels essential and sometimes it's like a casino in my pocket.

I've mentioned it before, but travel back to the US is a major expense, and it contains several categories within it. Flights and hotels are just the start when you start to look at all the costs associated with it. Most Americans don't make trans-Atlantic trips at all, but we do regularly because we live on the other side of it.

And then really, one has to look at the cost of being an expat itself. We make all sorts of spending choices that we wouldn't have to make if we lived back in the States. Right now, I think it's worth it for several big reasons, but I'm tempted to sit down and try and do a full accounting of what it's costing us to be here.

When looking at the cash flow parasites, it doesn't mean there's no value within them. Seeing our families is worth spending money. The phones do have major safety benefits and they allow easy access to a lot of free content. Living in Europe has major upsides. But I'm going to try and look at my choices much more holistically and see if there's some overarching concept that's causing me to spend a certain way.

November 2018 Net Worth Update

In November, our net worth rose about 5.25% to $37,962. In euros, it rose 5.7% to €33.417.The big factors that affected this number are as follows.

Stock Market

The stock market continued its volatility, and a number of individual companies I own fell by quite a lot. That's not fun to watch, but I have to content myself that the prices have fallen, and all future purchases are now going to matter more due to the lower purchase price.

I'm sitting on a net unrealized loss. That's mentally taxing, to put it mildly, but in addition to the above-listed consolation, I also spend a lot of time looking at past market corrections and how they affected the names that I'm holding. It feels painful now, but in a few years this will have been a blip in the movement of the stock markets. Even if this lasts a year, it is unlikely to be horrible.

I remember watching the 2015/2016 correction happening, and although it was exciting at the time, it now feels like nothing. When people talk about the long bull market, they rarely mention 2015/16, even though it was incredibly painful for a wide variety of stocks and industries. If you were holding commodity stocks, especially oil, you just got hammered. But that gets lost in the narrative of "the longest bull market in history".

Saving and a Gift

We saved a good amount this month (33.5% of income). Despite the stock market pain and despite my wife working fewer hours last month, our savings rate helped us inch upwards. We did get the electricity bill refund, so that basically eliminated our electricity costs for the month.

The biggest lever when you're talking about modest sums of money isn't the returns from investments but the total amount saved.

For transparency's sake, at the end of last month I received a monetary gift of $1000 out of the blue. I'm still uncertain as to why (other than that person loving me), but that money went straight to savings.

Economic Outpatient Care

The The Millionaire Next Door, Dr. Stanley spent a lot of time discussing "economic out-patient care". His basic idea was this: young people who receive a lot of monetary support from their familial elders often remain dependent on that support and develop bad habits that limit their future financial resourcefulness. He called that "weakening the weak".

Since learning of the concept, I've tried to be much more careful with such gifts. When I was much younger, I did develop bad habits from the knowledge that I had monetary help should I need it, and I'm trying to make up for past sins, so to speak.

Looking Ahead

December is a bit of a wild card. We have estimated taxes to pay, and we will eventually be billed for an extra payment for last year's German taxes. We also have a small trip to enjoy, which will cost some money, but I doubt we'll be extravagant.

Of course, there's always Christmas gifts, but we're modest gift givers, and we encourage modest gifts for ourselves as well. Because we live abroad, nobody expects anything too expensive or complicated, which does reduce expectations.

Unless the market really falls off a cliff, I expect further slow but steady progress.

CC Award Update

We got the award.

In an earlier post, I expressed some reservations about these big awards and the minimum spend required to achieve them. I still feel that, and my wife still feels that. We did drastically reduce our planned expenses. We don't like feeling incentivized to make big purchases.

But I still wanted the award for reasons I'll explain later, so I found a method of manufactured spending to make it work. There aren't many available to us Americans abroad, but there are some, and I took advantage.

The manufactured spend did cost something as a percentage of the spend, so it wasn't free. Basically, it's a cost for the accumulation of these points. I think it's better than buying a bunch of expensive stuff totaling $4000.

Why do it at all though? The basic calculation in my head was something like this: we are going to travel to the United States again at some point in the next two years, so therefore it's worth spending a little, to save much more later. The return is pretty good in this case (around $70 spent to save between $600-$1000 later). Even if I later eat the annual fee, the return is decent.

The reality is that we're going to visit family in the US at some point. It's important to both of us, and despite any savings goals we have, it's not worth sacrificing relationships or missing seeing child relatives grow up. Next summer we'll suffice with FaceTime, but the next year we'll almost certainly be heading back.

Or we'll help relatives who aren't as financially well off come visit us. It is much cheaper for us to pay to fly someone here, than for both of us to fly to the US and find accommodation and transportation.

Will we do this again? Maybe. I'm looking at other card award possibilities, but the trouble with manufactured spending is that it's kind of skirting the rules. I prefer to draw as little attention to myself as possible regarding my American financial accounts, and manufactured spending can open me up to closer inspection. I might do this with another similar card and then focus on things like hotel cards that provide free nights automatically. Since hotel costs were a high proportion of our last visit, cutting down on that would be worthwhile.

Or maybe I won't. I could just continue to add points to this card that I have and otherwise use normal German payment methods to get by. Germany doesn't have the same glut of strategies that the US has, but it has a few, and those might be enough to both satisfy the points accumulating itch and to keep things simple.

Post-Vacation Deprogramming

Since our last vacation, I've been going through bouts of thinking something was financially logical only to doubt myself. I mentioned before my ambivalence about credit card reward hacking, and that's continued. But moreover, I'm looking at all sorts of decisions before and since the vacation that are just puzzling, and I have to conclude that vacations of the modern variety are enormous mental and money traps if you're not exceedingly careful.

For example, social media is a vast reinforcement mechanism for what is normal and expected. Professionally and personally, I am surrounded by people who take fairly extravagant vacations and share them to social media. Moreover, the photography surrounding the vacations is rapidly improving, making personal vacations closely resemble advertisements.

As for advertisements, has anybody else noticed that YouTube can start to resemble ads for ads for ads? It's like ads all the way down. We watch ads before we watch our nicer more interesting ads. Whether it be for trailers, or makeup, or electronics, or just about anything else, it's easy to get sucked into a perpetual ad whirlpool.

Two realties that present real traps for me and my wife:

• We live far away from our broader families. 
• We live in the tourism capital of the world (Europe, broadly speaking). 

That makes taking some kind of vacation or extended travel somewhat inevitable. We can be careful, and we have been more careful in the past, but right now, I feel like something is off in my thinking and planning. 

Credit Card Award Beginner

Over the summer, while making several US trips, I managed to score a few credit card awards. These were the easy to achieve kind: spend $500 in three months and get back around $150.

In August, I might have bit off more than I can chew. I went for one of the big mid-tier cards that offer you a bunch of points for $4000 spend in three months. It has no foreign transaction fees, so I can stick a lot of our local transactions on the card. That's no problem.

But despite some lofty goals, I'm finding it hard to spend the money. First, there's a lag between being approved for the card and its arrival abroad. In that time, some spending has to happen just to eat, so that spend doesn't count towards the reward, though the clock had started ticking on the 90 days.

Second, there are few good options for manufactured spend in Germany. Those Visa cards you can load up in the U.S. don't really exist in the same way here. There's no Plastiq, so rent and a bunch of other bills happen directly from our normal bank account.

One of the rules I set for this project was to not spend extraneous money that we otherwise would not have spent. One the one hand, we haven't gone out and bought a bunch of crazy extra stuff. No new computers or cell phones.

The stuff we planned to buy that would have helped us cross the spending threshold keep getting cheaper the longer we plan. For example, we planned to put a bunch of next summer's U.S. trip on the card, but we determined that a trip would be too expensive, so we chucked that. We planned on buying a nice couch, but even with the reward, we find couches too expensive and keep finding acceptable couches at lower price points. We are taking a brief vacation on one of my long weekends, but with low-cost airlines in Europe, it just wasn't that expensive. And we planned on doing some nice-ish things for the apartment, but short of a full kitchen overhaul, we can't stand spending the money.

And some of the more outlandish ideas, such as buying a new iPhone, get snuffed out mentally before they have much gestation time.

On the other hand, we wouldn't have done even this amount of spending without the card, so it's encouraged us to open our wallets more than we otherwise would have. The couch we have is an eyesore, but it's functional. The apartment improvements could have waited. The small trip could have been even smaller.

I've been forced to update how we budget, which adds complication. It's much harder now to get a big picture idea of how well we're managing money since a budgeted item happens this month but the actual paying for it happens next month or later. I've developed some new systems, but what used to be simple is now more complex, and I believe complexity makes overspending more likely.

I keep coming back to one thing: the reward is worth between $600-$1000 depending on how well it's used. But if you don't spend any money at all, then such a reward pales in comparison to the value saved.

I've been going back to some of my favorite sources for financial inspiration, and some of my spending ideas feel more suspect. For example, I thought of front-loading our mobile prepaid amounts for the next year. But now I'm wondering if I even really need a mobile phone. I have some internet services that I use. I could prepay them... or I could cancel them and just keep the money.

I'm not certain if I'll do any of those things, but I'm considering it. So there's a kind of mental battle between my desire to try churning out of curiosity, my default frugal side, my radical frugal side that wants to move into a studio apartment and sell our furniture and use the library's internet, a certain amount of sunk cost fallacy lurking in the background, and my desire for the stuff we're going to buy.

I know an American family here that churns U.S. credit cards successfully, but I have no idea what their budget looks like, and I believe that they have willing helpers in the US who spend on the card on their behalf. I'm not so trusting as to give any of my family my credit card, so that avenue is not open to us.

At the very least, I doubt I'll do this again any time soon no matter how it turns out. It really doesn't appear practical for us.